Personal Essay
April 9, 2025

"I Didn't Know I Was Strong"

An interview with Chelise, protagonist of The City of the Gods — chosen without consent, who chose without being forced.

Before the Gods
Let's start at the beginning: who were you before any of this happened?

Just a girl. A normal girl from Arizona. I had a good childhood for a while — two parents who loved each other, a home that felt safe.

And then things changed. My parents divorced, and it was like the floor disappeared. We moved constantly. I learned to not make too many friends. I learned to be quiet. Invisible was easier than visible.

When you say invisible, what did that feel like?

Like I was a background character in my own life. Like things happened to me rather than because of me. I was bullied at one point — the kind that makes you question yourself.

The Wager
Did you know you were being watched?

Not at first. Hermes told me. He appeared and explained everything — that Will and the twin goddesses, Fate and Destiny, were in conflict, and I was the test.

I remember feeling furious. Not scared — furious. Who gave them permission to turn my life into an experiment?

What did they want from you?

Fate and Destiny wanted me to follow a fixed path. Will wanted me to choose freely. I realized I wasn't a prop — I was the question itself.

The Deepest Fears
What were you most afraid of?

That they were right. That I didn't have a choice. That I was always going to be small and invisible.

The deepest fear was that even if I chose differently, nothing would change.

What kept you going?

At first, anger. Later, something quieter — the idea that the choice itself mattered. That something inside me belonged only to me.

"You are not a victim of your circumstances. You are the question the universe is still waiting to answer."
After the City
Did your life change?

Not on the surface. Same life, same struggles. But I am different — and that changes everything.

I don't feel invisible anymore. I know I have a choice — in every moment. In the middle of chaos, I just chose. And it was enough.

Final Words
What would you say to someone like you?

The gods are watching you — whether you believe in them or not. And they are not as powerful as you think.

Choose something real. Even once. And see what happens.

Chelise's story is not over. Read The City of the Gods — available now.

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Dr. Jason A. Patterson
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